05. Somebody’s Past
Yeah
Somebody’s Past
Dyler Ruther
Its getting tougher and tougher each second
Its getting tougher to ignore you
Its like I hear you calling me then I gotta pretend that its not me your calling
You speaking straight to my heart and in a minute your gone
You keep me hanging on the line
Hello hello
I keep screaming to my phone
Only its not a phone it’s the heart and screaming doesn’t do shit you are already gone
I keep telepathing sending waves your way
The signal gets strong but it fades a sec away
I think you are talking about me telling a friend or something
I think you are regretting why you ever met me
I’m a story to tell now
A warning to the young ones
A bad experience
A lesson maybe
But to me you are an angel(a wifey)
A glimpse at real love(damn me)
I gotta stop telepathing coz you said you aint coming
I’m already a past thing and your past means nothing
I had a queen but all I did was play dice
I give you a chance I never do it the second time
Now I’m just hugging my grief
I’m somebody’s past
And its all on me
She letting me be
Eeehh this is not my scene and the script is lost
She letting me be
Imma let you love you coz that’s your zone
(Baby gal I loved you from way back
Baby gal I loved you from way back
Baby gal I’m waiting for a re-patch)
Its not easy to be somebody’s Past
I regret it
Should’ve never chosen your easy heart
I’m in debted
Now I’m looking at the pieces of the heart
I collected
Said I’ll never ever break another heart
So reckless
But look at you now I mean
What have I done again
Swimming in blood again
Why do I love the pain
Why cant I stop the rain
Why I’m I so foreign
To peace and love the lane
Why do I cause this pen
Men
I regret being mad
I tried to be an angry boyfriend now I’m stuck
Stuck thinking what we could’ve been in a month
Stuck tryna picture me n you in a mat
Stuck hoping that someday you’ll take me back
Stuck praying hoping that the guilty will wash out
Its not easy not easy I repeat
To walk with a burden of sad memories
To look at your past and get on your knees
To pray for forgiveness but never receive
Its not easy not easy not easy I repeat
To live like a beast
A beast with no leash
Attacking the innocent
Painting them tick
Thrashing their purelyness
Leave in a blink
I pray you find joy
I pray you find peace
I wish I could go back to 2014
And stop me from being a young scientist
Now I live with guilt and you have a scar
Just because I put me first in the car
The life car
The one I’ve driven this far
I had a queen but all I did was play dice
I give you a chance I never do it the second time
Now I’m just hugging my grief
I’m somebody’s past
And its all on me
She letting me be
Eeehh this is not my scene and the script is lost
She letting me be
Imma let you love you coz that’s your zone
(Baby gal I loved you from way back
Baby gal I loved you from way back
Baby gal I’m waiting for a re-patch)
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